Doctor Oh Doctor

went to school to hand in some papers in the early morning then the puring(literally) rain hit me on the way home.

after a shower i went shopping with W.burning some cash def makes me high,and the moment i was high,we were invited to a club by a text!so we went and guess who were this texter with???!!!! fun-loving P and his asshole friend F,P was trying to be nice but F never bothers trying. jerk! they are still in China enjoying their club fun life! it was sooooooooooooooooooooooo fucking awkward!!!and i didn't feel like dancing at all,well i never do anyway,so except having a couple of drinks,i kinda just stood there like a stupid pole and totally made a big fool of myself i guess,especially compared to the active W.i really wanna dig a hole and disappear right there! i really wanna go but W was attracted to that Canadian guy and having the time of her life.god!and when i was about to leave i did another thing that totally embarrassed the hell out of myself! eventually we left and i just couldn't stop feeling crappy!

in a word i had a great day which ended really really shitty!

hi

not you?

ok good night

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so what?

i'm disappointing you?

stupid!

new kicks

sushi

nice

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keep on doing what i have to do!!!!!!!!!!!!

keep on on on on on on on on on on on on on on and on!

they've been twisted.....yea by my stupid self

and not twisted as a wrench but more like a transforming

every wave of aching comes along with every step i took

somehow the more steps i took the less pain i could feel

but i can't keep taking steps like a real transformer can i?

still they hurt like fucking hell!

rushing out in the heavily snowed winter morning

he brought home a table of great dishes

a bunch of flowers

a smile

a hug

a kiss

which are all for her birthday

i was convinced by my own eyes that once you get that young hearts

you are never too old to enjoy the love and romance running in the almost 40 yrs long marriage.

Happy Birthday Aunt