The top 10 traits out of 90 that uniquely describe you

Abrasive

You are accustomed to rubbing people the wrong way; it's simply what happens when you express your opinions. In your opinion, there's nothing wrong with being controversial.

You don't have a "live and let live" attitude when it comes to other people whose opinions clash with yours; you see no reason to give the benefit of the doubt to someone who is just plain wrong.

Pessimistic

You tend to be a "glass half-empty" kind of person, which for you is simply a realistic outlook. Your feeling is that this world can be a depressing place, and only a fool would think otherwise.

You do not waste your time searching for the silver lining in every cloud, nor do you believe it's your job to cheer up the people around you with happy talk.

Rash

You get excited easily, allow yourself to react without censoring your feelings, and sometimes blurt out the first thing that comes to mind.

You generally don't consider what you're about to say before you open your mouth to speak.

Volatile

You go with the flow when it comes to your emotions. Whether you're happy or sad, you show it, and when something upsets you, or you're feeling stressed out, those around you will know it right away.

You are not necessarily the one person in any group who can be depended on to stay calm, cool, and collected in a crisis; you aren't known for keeping your emotions under wraps.

Passionate

You are in touch with your emotions, and sometimes you react before you think. The good news: you don't tamp down your feelings. The bad news: you sometimes say or do things that you later wish you could take back.

You do not live your life on an even keel; you do not go for long periods without experiencing some mood swings.

Aesthetic

You appreciate art, beauty, and design; you know that they are not superficial but absolutely crucial to living the good life. You have good taste, and you're proud of it. Those with a high score on the "aesthetic" trait are often employed in literary or artistic professions, enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about the arts, reading, and travel.

You don't think it's pretentious to be moved by art and beauty. You're not one of those who believe it doesn't matter what something looks like as long as it does its job.

Reckless

You tend to give in to your impulses and indulge your cravings. Rather than fight your emotions, you often do what comes naturally, which means occasionally overdoing it, sometimes even embarrassing yourself.

You are not good at resisting temptation and avoiding overindulgence; you are not the kind of person who doesn't regret anything you said or did.

Stressed Out

You often feel that there's too much on your plate, that you don't have the strength to deal with the bad hand you've been dealt, or that you're going to lose it if you have to deal with one more problem.

You don't always bounce back quickly from adversity; sometimes when you get bad news it can hang over you for a long time.

Curious

You like to get to the bottom of things. You're not content knowing what someone did; you want to know why they did it.

You don't simply take things as they are and move on; you're not content skimming along on the surface; you don't feel you're wasting time by digging for the meaning of things.

Impulsive

You trust your your instincts. What others may see as rash behavior is, for you, simply going with your gut. Individuals with a high score on the "impulsive" trait tend to try new, sometimes outrageous, things.

You are not timid. For you, spending time microscopically examining the pros and cons of every decision means never getting anything accomplished.

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The Lively Center of Attention

Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

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probably plus these:

ADHD
BD
ED
MDD
OCD
SAD
CRSD
DD

Room 1: "lay down", and then some small dental tool i don't know the name of was touring in my mouth. 

Room 2: "what's your blood type?" "umm A, i think." "what do you mean you think? it can't be something you think of, it is a fact!" "umm i took the test long time ago when i was in elementary school so....yeah A."

Room 3: "go to the next sections where there aren't so many people, then come back here."

Room 4: "bend down then stand up." piece of cake. "put your bag away and expose your breasts." PARDON?!

Room 5: "let's see. don't eat too much fast food or food that contains too much sugar or oil." then repeat the same words again. why does that have anything to do with it?not everyone of my generation has to be a big fan of junk food and sugar! but the doc was a cute funny old grandpa.

back to Room 3: found out i was almost blind and had low blood sugar and on my way of transforming into a fucking fat ass!!!! ouch!

Room 6: i was examined like a alien freak. lifted my right ear to see what was going on in there. then left one. and then some metal tool was used to expand my nostrils to see what was happening in there too. and then some stick was down in my throat to see if there was another party down there."oh a pierced tongue!" right on sir!

Room 7: "strip and put on the big white coat." then i was completely exposed to the radiation.

before all that, i peed in a little plastic cup for the first time in my entire life. ewwwwwwwwwww it was so fucking disgusting.

I JUST WANNA SCREAM IT IN YOUR FUCKING FACE!

SHANGHAI — For the past year and a half, said Ding Chengtai, a recent university graduate, his friends have wondered why he seems to have disappeared.

Ding, a 23-year-old Internet technology expert for a large Chinese bank, chuckled at the thought. He keeps himself in virtual seclusion during his off hours, consumed with American television programs like "Lost," "C.S.I." and "Close to Home."

He is no ordinary fan, though: None of the shows he watches can be seen on Chinese television. Instead, he spends night after night translating subtitles for current sitcoms and dramas for a mushrooming audience of Chinese viewers who download them from the Internet free through services like BitTorrent.

What is most remarkable about the effort, which involves dozens of translators working in teams all over China, is that it is entirely voluntary. Ding's group, which goes by the name Fengruan, is locked in fierce competition with a handful of similar outfits that share the same ambition: making American popular culture available in near-real time free to Chinese audiences, dodging Chinese censors and American copyright lawyers.

"We've set a goal of producing 40 TV shows a week, which basically means all of the shows produced by Fox, ABC, CBS and NBC," said Ding, fairly bubbling over the project. "What this means is that when the Americans broadcast shows, we will translate them. Our speed surpasses all the other groups in China, and our goal is to be the best American transcription service in the world."

Locked as he is in a sometimes nasty competition with local rivals, Ding seemed blind to the fact that his group might have already attained its proclaimed goal. Although there are clubs in other countries that watch American television programs with translated subtitles online, the systematic effort of groups like Fengruan to reproduce American prime-time entertainment free of charge and in its entirety for a booming audience of Chinese fans is unique.

To a person, the translators say they are willing to devote long hours to this effort out of a love for American popular culture. Many, including Ding, say they learned English by obsessively watching American movies and television programs. And others say they pick up useful knowledge about everything from changing fashion and mores to medical science.

"It provides cultural background relating to every aspect of our lives: politics, history and human culture," Ding said. "These are the things that make American TV special. When I first started watching 'Friends,' I found the show was full of information about American history, and showed how America had rapidly developed. It's more interesting than textbooks or other ways of learning."

On an Internet forum about the downloaded television shows, a poster who used the name Plum Blossom put it another way. "After watching these shows for some time, I felt the attitudes of some of the characters were beginning to influence me," the poster wrote. "It's hard to describe, but I think I learned a way of life from some of them. They are good at simplifying complex problems, which I think has something to do with American culture."

Rendering the slang of American culture into Chinese is a special challenge. In an episode of "Sex and the City," the line "I thought you two would hit it off" became "I thought you two would generate electricity together." From "Prison Break," the warning "Preparation can only take you so far" turned into: "People can only try to do things. It's God's will that ensures success."

Whatever the programs say about American culture, translation efforts like these have received a boost from conditions particular to China. This country combines a fast-growing population of more than 123 million Internet users, most with access to broadband service, with a stultifying television culture. The state-owned national network, CCTV, has 16 broadcast channels, but they vary little in their mixture of endless historical dramas, tepid soap operas and copycat game shows.

In an e-mail interview, a fan of American television shows who goes by the name of Happyidea and who declined to give his real name, gave this assessment of the Chinese programming: "Our own actors are not bad. Those responsible for making Chinese TV shows pathetic are the directors, screenwriters, editors and the people doing the lighting, music, special effects and makeup. There are bits of poor quality in every aspect, and it adds up to total trash."

A longstanding practice of strict censorship that affects all Chinese media, and covers not only politics, but sexuality, violence and other subjects that form the grist of American entertainment, also drives audiences toward alternatives like downloadable television shows. And there are sharp limits on the number of American programs and Hollywood movies that can be broadcast or screened in theaters here.

China imported only 16 American films last year, out of a total of 20 foreign movies. American programs are similarly scarce on Chinese television. "CCTV-8 aired 'Desperate Housewives' and we made a point of watching it," said Jin Bo, 25, an English teacher and member of the YDY translation group, a leading rival to Fengruan. "I thought, Oh my God, the dubbing, the translation, why is it all so bad? It lost what made the original show wonderful, and the ratings were extremely low."

As examples of what went wrong with the CCTV-8 broadcast, Jin said: "They would start the show at 10 p.m. and run three episodes back to back. Moreover, to adapt the program to fit the so-called situation of our country, words were eliminated or had their meanings altered. For example, the scene where Andrew reveals his homosexuality was cut."

The rival TV translation groups, by contrast, take great pride in their work, basing their translations on closed-caption transcripts in English that, along with the programs themselves, are typically captured on computers by collaborators in the United States and sent to China via the Internet.

Strict hierarchies exist in each of the translation groups, with translators being promoted not simply for speed, which is vital, but judged on their faithfulness to the original material as well.

Official efforts to control both the market for and content of popular culture have long had the effect of encouraging piracy here. Cheap DVD copies of newly released American movies have been sold on street corners throughout China for years. Recent attempts to crack down on these sales, at the insistence of the United States, have coincided with the boom in television and movie downloading, which could eventually make DVD piracy obsolete.

Representatives of American television networks said they were counting on new Chinese legislation to stop the downloading and translation of their programming.

Duan Yuping, an official with the National Copyright Administration, said China was following "international efforts" in regard to BitTorrent and other downloading services.

Members of the translation groups are aware that their efforts might violate copyright laws in other countries, but most view it as a mere technicality because they charge nothing for their efforts and make no profits, adhering to Chinese law.

"Essentially what we are doing is a violation, but since China hasn't proposed a law to regulate this yet, we're still doing it," Ding said. "Maybe in the future, the state will make such a law. If they do, our forum won't be able to survive."

By Howard W. French 

from New York Times

trying to be tough revealed the true weakness

haven't taken off yet, but you are feeling like falling

not even half way to the top, but you are feeling like giving it all away

the way you tried to win made you lost even more

the way you are handling the situation is so sad and pathetic

because the only way you are dealing with it is trying to avoid it

you run you hide

it is a gigantic pink elephant in the middle of my room

once in a while there comes the time when you should reach out and ask for help

you really need help

but not this time you told yourself

this time you are on your own